Escape The Fate Ungrateful Album Download Zip

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Aug 19, 2023
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"This being in all probability thelast letter that you will receive fromme at Mannheim, I address it to youalone. How deeply the wider separationwhich is about to take place betweenus affects me, you may partlyconceive, though not feel it in the samedegree with which it oppresses myheart. If you reflect seriously on whatI have undergone with you two childrenin your tender years, you will notaccuse me of timidity, but, on the contrary,do me the justice to own that Iam, and ever have been, a man with theheart to venture every thing, thoughindeed I always employed the greatestcircumspection and precaution. Againstaccidents it is impossible to provide, forGod only sees into futurity. Up to thistime we cannot be said to have beeneither successful or unsuccessful; but,[Pg 577]God be thanked, we have steered betweenthe two. Every thing has beenattempted for your success, and throughyou for our own. We have at leastendeavoured to settle you in some appointmenton a secure footing; thoughfate has hitherto decreed that we shouldfail in our object. This last step ofours, however, makes my spirit sinkwithin me. You may see as clearly asthe sun at noonday, that, through it, thefuture condition of your aged parents,and of your affectionately attached sister,entirely depends upon you. From thetime of your birth, and indeed earlier,ever since my marriage, I have foundit a hard task to support a wife, and,by degrees, a family of seven children,two relatives by marriage, and the mother,on a certain income of twenty-fiveflorins a month, out of this to pay formaintenance and the expenses of child-bed,deaths, and sicknesses; which expenses,when you reflect upon them, willconvince you that I not only never devoteda kreutzer to my own privatepleasure, but that I could never, in spiteof all my contrivances and care, havemanaged to live free from debt withoutthe especial favour of God; and yet Inever was in debt till now. I devotedall my time to you two, in the hope andindeed reliance upon your care in return;that you would procure for mea peaceful old age, in which I mightrender account to God for the educationof my children, and, without anyother concern than the salvation of mysoul, quietly await death. But Providencehas so ordered, that I must nowafresh commence the ungrateful task oflesson-giving, and in a place, too, wherethis dreary labour is so ill paid, that itwill not support one from one end ofthe year to the other; and yet it is tobe thought a matter of rejoicing if,after talking oneself into a consumption,something or other is got by it.